Come Away with Me

Mixed feelings

Today is exactly two months since i first stepped foot on Japan.
It's hard to believe how my time here passed by so quickly.

Today ia also the first time i felt a little homesick since arriving on the island.
Perhaps it's cos i know that daddy will be home tonight for the Mid-Autumn festival and everyone will enjoy mom's sumptuous homecooked dinner that i felt a tinge of longingness for home.

Anyway, I received the recontracting documents for the JET program yesterday.It came much faster than i had expected though the deadline is not until 2nd of Feb next year. Some choices in life are harder and really need more contemplation than others i guess and it struck me that sooner or later, i would really have to make the much dreaded decision. That is, to stay on another year or pack my bags and head home.

To be honest, I had been toying with the idea of extending another year for sometime now. I enjoy my life at the moment, be it surrounded by other people or by my own solitude. I like the new found sense of independence and freedom i have here. It does not mean that i am not missing my family and boyfriend much but just that somehow, staying only for a year does not really justify the amount of work and effort that went into the whole process from obtaining my citizenship, the actual application to the long wait for placement. I feel that i ought to give both myself, the island and Japan one more year as i don't see much possibility of coming back so soon in the near future after returning home.

But at the same time, a year feels like a sensible time frame and i know that i should go home to pick up the pieces that were left behind.Afterall, i 've done what i wanted to, even though it was only for one short year.

Whether it is a year or two, one thing is for sure. I have set out and done what i wanted to do so either decision, i will still be contented at the end of the day. Right now, i will just take each day as it comes and enjoy the remaining months on the island.

posted by テレサ @ 12:42 PM